December 4th 2012 - The worse day?

Di postingan ini, gue mau sedikit curhat tentang kisah cinta gue yg bisa dibilang "PAHIT"

4 Desember 2012, hari terburuk buat gue. The day when i gave up on love. The day when i chose to close the page. The day when i cried myself to sleep. The day when i let my oxygen gone. The day when i chose to let go. The worse day i ever had.

Kenapa gue sebut itu hari terburuk? Because that's the day i ended everything with him. I love him from the deepest of my heart. But why i let him go? Simply, because i love him.

4 desember tepatnya pukul 8 malam, I ended everything. I ended this relatioship that mainly hurt me. Gak mikir panjang lagi, gak mikir efek dari tindakan gue. Rasa nyesek yang teramat besar membuat gue dengan gampangnya minta putus, dan dengan gampangnya juga dia setuju dengan permintaan gue.


JLEB


Iya jleb banget. Gue pikir dia mau pertahanin hubungan ini, tapi apa? He simply let me go like what we had for 3 months are nothing. But, once again why? Why he easily let me go? Idk, only god and him know. Nyesek? Pasti. Nangis? Gak manusiawi kalo gak nangis. Hancur? Iya. Why, why, and why? I questioned myself to sleep. Why he agreed that easily? Am i no longer someone he loves? Idk, but i don't hope so. Well, i don't want to be naive. But saat itu gue berharap banget dia bakal nahan gue. Munafik lah kalo bilang gue gak ngarepin ditahan. Gue cewek kali. Pengen dikejar. Tapi ya begitulah. Dia bahkan gak nanya alasan gue minta putus, dan sekali lagi itu nyakitin gue. Nyakitin gue? Kenapa? Idk, yang jelas saat itu perasaan gue gak karuan lagi. HANCUR. 


Dan 4 Desember 2012 adalah hari terakhir gue disebut pacar Fikry.