(credit goes to daragonindo @officialdgindo)
Have you ever feel broken?
Have you ever feel your life's wrecked?
Have you ever feel like cry isn ' t enough?
Have you ever feel Suicide is the only way?
Have you ever feel betrayed by people who promised to never hurt you?
Have you ever feel life is n ' t fair to you?
And have you ever feel your world fall down at only one time?
I laugh remembered the sad incident last week. Incident that changed my entire life. Tsk, I'm so disgusted with myself at that time, too blinded by lasting-love-forever. How pathetic I was. Haft, but most of all I was disgusted with that man, the heartless jerk.
Flashback ON
Right now I've just finished filming 2NE1's new MV who will be released next week. Hah, I'm very busy now. I've just finished doing promotions for our songs before, and now I also just finished shooting for our new music video. I'm definitely going to be busy again. I'm really busy, I haven't even met him this month. Met the man I love very much. Ah, I can't wait to go home now.
"Unnie, you'll go back to dorm or to 'your' apartment?" Chaerin asked me who was busy packing my stuffs.
"I'll go to our apartment, Chae." Yes, our apartment. Me and Kwon Jiyong, or better known as G-Dragon, Bigbang's Kwon leader. "Chae, seems like im going now. Please tell Bom and Minzy if I wont come home tonight. "
*****
Iam standing in front of our apartment. Im planning to surprise him, so I didnt tell him that I will go home tonight. After 1 month of busy and didnt see him made me really miss him. I hope he's not busy right now, I really want to spend time with him.
I pressed our apartment password. When I walked in, I didnt find him in the living room.What i saw was only an ON TV and garbages here and there. Aish that guy ... I stepped my foot towards our room, eager to meet him. When the door opened i was surprised ....
There ...
On the top of our bed was Jiyong and the girl whom I recognized as Kiko Kissing. Not noticed my presence. Maybe he was too busy exploring the contents of her mouth so he doesnt aware about the surrounding Like heaven belongs to them if possible.
I'm just speechless in my spot, stare at the making out-couple who was not worthy to see. Cant believe with my own eyes. I really hope i just halucinating right now, or at least help me get out of here. without conscious, tears began to fall from my eyes.
.
Hurt.
It hurts to see the man i love so much kissed other girl's lip, a girl who had been rumored to have a relationship with him. and to my great pain, they was kissing in our bed. once again, OUR BED!!!!!
i had been silent all the times, blinding my eyes, deafen my ears from the rumors about them- Kiko and GD. I have always insisted that theyre just friend. im so damn believe Jiyong. i was so dumb, i was fooled by the false love Jiyong gave. How pathetic i am. Without realize, my tears fall more and more made a loud sobs who surprise the making out couple from their fuckin world.
"Dara ......"
That voice. The voice from the man i trust, the voice of the man I love damn much and also the voice of the same man who made me shattered.
"Dara I can explain this .." Jiyong started stepped towards me trying to hold my shoulders. But my heart was too numb that i dont even want to hear any explanation from him. Because I'm sure, only lie that will come out from his mouth.
"Please .. Dont! Dont come near me .." I stepped my foot backwards trying to avoid him, I really dont want to hear anything from him, I dont even want to be touched by him even just the tip of finger.
"I can explain this Dara."
"Dont explain anything about this! Dont! Please Ji! I'm sure you''ll just lie again to cover the other lies. I dont want Ji "I said sobbing while running backwards.
"Da-"
"STOP! I’ll just go now, and it’s free for you to continue your fuckin making out with that whore" I said, stared at the silent Kiko in our bed. Tch! "I think we better bre--"
"Dara please dont! I dont want to break up. Please. You know I love you right? "Jiyong said as he quickly grabbed my shoulder and hug me
"Get off me you bastard! I never want to be touched by a bastard like you! GET OFF MEEE! "I yelled as I tried to get free from his arms. I'm not going to be in the arms of this jerk.
"Dara dont leave me! I love you so "
"STOP! Dont you dare to tell me you love me anymore. I'm sick. if you love me you wont flirt with another slut in our bad! You Moron! "
"Dara please ..."
"I think im done here. excuse me. continue what you were doing before, don’t consider my presence before. "I said, pushing him away and quickly get out of the apartment, left the man I love so much there with that fish. Spend my night with tears that never stopped.
END OF Flashback
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“Tch..” I hissed softly as I remembered that memory
"Mwo?" Minzy asked me, looked at me with eyes rounded.
"Why are you looking at me like that maknae? Huh?"
"What was you say earlier unnie?" Minzy said as she looked at me intently. Aish looks like she heard my sigh.
"Ah it's okay. I was just thinking. "
"Oh, all right. Unnie, you better pack your stuff. We will return to Korea tomorrow. " Minzy remind me and stepped out of my room.
I sighed quietly.Huh, tomorrow we will go back to Korea? it means I'm going to meet him? Tch! I'm not ready yet to see him, I'm still not able to control my emotions and feelings. the next day after the incident, 2NE1 received a job in Japan for a week, and I'm very happy. It means I will not meet Jiyong for a week, but now I have to go back. Aishtttt! Oh yeah, I havent told anyone about our relationship that has ended. I decided not to tell anyone because if I tell someone else, I'm just going to be pitied because the boyfriend I love the most cheated on me. Tsk, I dont want to be pitied. Im a strong woman. And also I dont want to tell the other 2NE1 members because I'm pretty sure when I tell them, they would immediately invade Jiyong, especially Bom. She would instantly kill Jiyong. And I dont want that to happen. That will only ruin the relationship of 21Bang. So I decided not to tell others first.
How kind I am ....
*****
After return from Japan, the 2NE1 girls immediately went to YG building because they have to do the dance practice for their latest song which will be promoted tomorrow. Dara's face began to show her bored expression knowing that they will go to the YG building, she might meet him there.
"Unnie, what happened to you? Normally you're really excited everytime we go to YG building. "Chaerin said, getting tired of seeing the bored expression her favorite unnie showed.
"what with you Ssantoki? I see you're in trouble? Mind to explain?" Bom said suddenly made Dara feel uneasy more.
'No, I cant tell them. Bom would ruin YG building if I tell her now. No, she cant ' Dara thought.
"MWO? Kekeke ah I'm just starving for some foods.”
"Really? You're not lying, right?" Bom realized something weird from Dara, caused her suspicious and want to know what makes her park sister was uneasy.
"Ah, I'm just really starving Bommie-ah."
"Well….I believe you, we will eat first before practice. You have to eat a lot, arasso? "Bom sid finally, still with the suspicion that enveloped her.
"Ne Bommie."
*****
After finished the dance practice for their latest song, the 2NE1 girls decided to rest in the practice room. They rest in peace until Seungri’s loud voice disturbed their peace ...
"CHAECAT!!"
"YA! Why did you shout hah? "Bom immediately smacked Seungri when he finally stand in front of Bom.
"Ouch! Ya noona why did you hit me? chaecat please help m-aww! "
"It was your punishment because you disturbed us Seungrat!" Chaerin simply said.
"Where’s Tabi?" Bom asked Seungri after she satisfied hit Seungri.
"MWO? You asked me about TOP hyung after you satisfied hit me? "Seungri stopped to talk when he caught the death glare Bom threw him. "Aish arasso arasso. hyung will be here soon. He just talk to the trainees.” Soon after, Daesung immediately appear in the room, followed by the other Big Bang members except Jiyong.
"Bommie! I really really miss you hon." TOP said with a sweet voice that makes the 2NE1 girls show a want-to-puke face. 2NE1 and Big Bang members were busy joking when the door suddenly opened, revealed Jiyong who walk towards them with a sad face, making one of the 2NE1 girls looked away and quickly stand up when Jiyong sat beside her.
"I have to go." Dara said suddenly, getting ready to leave when Jiyong quickly hold her hand, hold it so she cant go anywhere.
"Get off my hand." Dara whispered, making the others cant hear except Jiyong.
"YA! Where do you think you’re going Dara?"
"I forgot that I have to meet Yanggaeng now. My costume for tomorrow must be prepared Bommie-eh."
“Then, Jiyong accompany Dara!" TOP said, Ruled to Jiyong.
"N-"
"No need, I'm old enough to go alone!" Dara cut before Jiyong could answer.
“are you two fighting unnie?" Mizky asked, She had been silent all the times, watched her unnie & oppa behave cold each other.
"Better you ask Jiyong." Dara said before left them who already stared directly at Jiyong.
"I-i .. we .. we .."
“Don’t you dare lie to me G-dragon..” Bom warned, threw death glare to Jiyong.
"We .. we're done."
"Done? What do you mean oppa? "Chaerin asked not understand of what Jiyong just said.
"We broke up."
"MWO??? Why did you guys break up? Are you having an affair? do you toss her away? Or do you broke her up? YA! What the-" Bom shouted loudly and ready to hit Jiyong when he answered her question.
"Dara saw me and Kiko together .."
"MWO!? You dare cheated on her huh?! I'm going to kill you." Bom yelled trying to hit Jiyong.
"Ani noona, I can explain! This is not what you’re thinking. Noona please.."
"So tell me now you bastard" Bom said impatient, really wanted to express her anger to Jiyong, who dare hurt her Park sister.
“She saw me with Kiko in our apartment kissing noona, but I can explain! Im not-“
"Kissing?? You said you can explain this? It’s clear that you’re cheated on her You son of ab * tch! Let me kill you! How dare you kiss that fish in front of Dara! I'll kill y-" Bom yelled at Jiyong and tried to hit him again, wanted to express all her anger after heard the fckin explanation from Jiyong, but TOP and Chaerin quickly dragged Bom out from the practice room, away from
Jiyong. Left Jiyong, Taeyang, Seungri and Minzy there. Silence.
"You .. you betrayed her huh?" Taeyang suddenly asked, breaking the silence.
"Bae I don’t mean it, you know .."
BAM!!
Taeyang quickly punched Jiyong hard on his face, make Jiyong and others shocked of his sudden act.
"You jerk! You son of a bitch! How dare you cheated on her? You are crazy bro!" Taeyang once again launched his fist into Jiyong, hit with all his strength. Daesung, Seungri and Minzy tried to separate them, look like Jiyong already lost his control after received a lot of punch from Taeyang.
"Why did you punch me huh?"
"Why did I punch you? You asked me WHY? ARE YOU SURE YOU ASKED ME THAT? HELL!! Im so fckin want to punch your fckin face until peoples can 't recognized you anymore! you bastard!! a fcking son of a bitch!"
“HELL YEAH! Whats your problem huh?”
"You know i love her, you know how deep i fall for her, you know how i Suffered everytime i see her with you, but now what? U fuckin cheated on her!!! And now u asked me why? YOU ASSHOLE! "
"Is it? It 's Because my fuckin bestfriend love my fuckin girlfriend so much? HELL! she doesnt even love you jerk!! you should stop love her!! Even if i cheated on her, so what? She will always love me, only love me! "
"Ji fuck you!" Taeyang punched Jiyong for the last time before getting out from the practice room. "Dara should've picked me over you before. I'm so fuckin dissapointed on you bro! I'll take her from you, i swear! I will make you regret what you did to her now. "
Jiyong wanted to run toward him and punch him when he heard those words from Taeyang.
“Fuck! No one can take Dara from me, even that bastard. She’s mine, only mine now and forever.
- TBC -
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