There's no fairytale?

There's no fairytale.

"If happy ever after did exist, i'd be still holding you like this. All those fairytales are full of shit."  ㅡ Maroon 5, Payphone.

Well, this is the 2nd time i found Payphone song kinda true. The 1st time was 2 years ago, and the 2nd time is happening now. Why? Heartbreak, obviously. Every relationship is a fairytale. It feels awesome and bring happiness, but then again it's a fairytale, and fairytale can be ruined. Fairytale does have storm, isn't it? 

So, my fairytale once again is ruined. It's ruined once, before. But i managed to create one again with the hope of forever, but as i said, it does have a storm. And once again, that storm came. It ruined the new fairytale i built. It sucks, i know. If it's going to be ruined again, why did i bother myself to create one? Then again, i'm just an ordinary human. And ordinary humans are fond with regret. 

I  regretted my first fairytale, but i regretted my second one more. Why? Obviously because the second time i still have the hope that somehow it's going to work even i know it won't. If only i can prevent myself from believing it, or somehow succeed in convince myself, all of this won't happening. I can save my self from the pains. Sadly, i was too consumed by love back then. And now i'm drowning, all thanks to this second fairytale.

But guess what? I'll try to get over this with no drama. I'll get through this without tears, i hope i can. After all, big girls don't cry, right? Then i won't create a new fairytale, not until i'm pretty sure i'm ready to face every consequences it will bring me. Or maybe i'll make one in the near future, if only i can get through this pain sooner? Who knows, what matters is i'm stronger than i've been before 

- UNTIL THEN -